People who already know who I am are aware that I am a military spouse. In fact, the folks that know about and read this site are probably military spouses themselves. As most people can imagine there are things both good and bad about being affiliated with the military.
The past 14 months for me has been overwhelmingly in the "bad" camp. My husband's current post has proved to be nothing short of miserable. Sure the place is pretty to look at and the weather is better than what I'm used to. But, I have no friends and not for lack of trying. I have no church home, again, not for lack of trying. The people I work with are nice enough, but my job largely consists of excessive amounts of paperwork and to-do lists. This year it is never ending stress as they have me teaching a new course that has no textbook and next to no real resources. It's like flying by the seat of your pants every day and I'm uncomfortable. The nature of my husband's job is such that I hardly see him even though he's not deployed. The damage our respective jobs have on our personal psyches and on our relationship is unreal.
To say that these last 14 months have left me depressed is an understatement. 10 months to go and we're home-free; off to wherever the military deems comes next.
I don't want to dwell on wholly negative things so here's my positive: I am secure in the knowledge that this assignment is only temporary. I can last the 6 months until we get to find out where we go next and in 10 months I'll be there, with God's good grace.
Yay I can comment! haha... I read this at like 6am this morning. I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling down, but I'm glad that you have a new duty station in sight, even if you don't know where it is yet. I know coming here has completely helped me, so I hope you end up somewhere amazing!
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